Beginner Mind Again and Changes

I’m happy that my hubby has decided to take yoga class with me. Another reason I love this is because it’s forced me back into a beginner class, and it has been “enlightening.” I’ve been moving away from physically demanding practices for a while now—I still do them when needed, and I’m physically active elsewhere—but lately when I come to my mat I need stillness. I’ve learned more in two beginner Kripula Yoga classes than I have in a long time. And I’m not talking about the postures.

I am tired of self-analysis, searching, and achieving. There is peace and happiness to be found in what is now. I do not need more self-improvement. I just need to remember to breathe and be mindful. Simple. Mindfulness is the backdrop that everything else rests on, and I feel like that is something I’ve lost recently.

What am I getting at here? Perhaps, I just mean that, for myself, there are more important things for me to focus on, more useful things to learn. I think I can be more “useful” if I can get my head out of this space. I may not have appeared to be outwardly busy, but internally, I had myself under a lot of pressure. I had myself under deadlines to have certain things figured out and decided upon. That has not been successful. And I fail to see how reading about the Chakras could help me.

Bliss Chick has written about something similar recently, and she puts this feeling into better words than I can. She writes about it here and here.

So I’m moving on and have decided to move on over to the Graceful Simplicity blog that I registered a while ago (it will be ready soon). Call it a fresh start or a clean break. This blog will still be here for whenever I feel like writing about yoga, but I hope my current readers will also venture over and visit me here. Change is good.

(Text copyright Graceful Yoga and Simplicity, 2009)